Blog #275: TBH I'm Tired of Sioux City

Today was Jolson's last in Sioux City, something I must admit I am quite envious of.

After spending some time people-watching in the caf, we did a bit of thrifting and walking around the mall. As far as entertainment goes in Sioux City, that's some of the best we have to offer.

I've always known that Sioux City isn't a place I could live longterm, but this became especially apparent after living in Bangalore and then Chicago. Even though neither of those cities are even necessarily my "dream city," they both still represent a lot of what I want from the places I'll live during my life.

Whether it's diversity, culture, local restaurants and shops, or even just better access to an airport, Sioux City is lacking in a lot of things I value. I'm of course grateful for my time here at Morningside, but I'm also just very ready to graduate and move somewhere else. I don't really think this is a bad thing either.

I've grown and learned a lot here at M'Side, but at this point, I think I've gotten what I need from here. The lessons I needed to learn here, the challenges and growth I needed to undergo... I think I've basically done it. This is the most evident to me in the moments where I feel "old," when I can't relate to most of the student body or I realize some of my closest friends on campus are my professors.

I say all of this with a fear of sounding incredibly pretentious, but I genuinely just feel like I've outgrown Morningside and Sioux City. My focus and my values are just different now, and Sioux City isn't serving these basically at all.

This blog post is a bit ramble-y, and I've had a lot of trouble putting my thoughts into words; I've deleted more sentences than I've kept, mostly for a fear of sounding obnoxious or self-righteous. Still, I always say I keep the blog honest, so these are my honest thoughts and feelings. I'm tired of Sioux City and I'm ready to graduate. I feel too old for Morningside and I'm ready for the "real world".

Seeing Jolson leave Sioux City and feeling incredibly jealous made this even more clear to me today, and so although I'm still going to try and enjoy the rest of my time here, I'm ready to graduate and get the heck out.